Journal Entry 1

Well, hello there friends. It’s so good to be here with you.

After a few months of retreat from the digital realm, here I am. Life is a funny thing, isn’t it? So often we are told our experience is measured in a straight line. If you aren’t moving forward, you must be doing something wrong. But what happens your path diverges from that nice, clean walkway towards the chaotic, uneven fault lines of hell?

That’s your moment of decision. You either preserve your comfort by staying on the pavement, or you brave the cracks, bloody your feet, and walk with a purpose towards the unknown. I’ve spent a few years mulling around on this expectation of perfection, trajectories, and what it means to be human. My online hiatus has allowed for clarification, reflection, and appreciation for the unholy mess we call life.

It isn’t easy. It was never meant to be. We aren’t meant to skate through our experience in a state of numbness. We are capable of so much more than we give our selves credit for, and maybe that’s what this journal is for. To examine the big picture by zeroing in on the things we take for granted; how we take ourselves for granted. I can’t change the parts that hurt, but I can traverse the terrain with mindful action and gratitude for the parts that allowed me to grow beyond the life in the fog.

This journal is my experience. It is my observations and my thoughts on where I have been and where I am going.

Where am I going?

Everywhere and nowhere all at once.

And I know I won’t be going alone.

If you’re here, you’re likely on a similar path. Are you still in the fog? I know I am somedays. But I can see it lifting. I don’t know what’s ahead, but I’m excited to be here with you.

One step at a time.